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maybe walking is really tripping.
just more organized.

Country Admission

I have to admit something -
I had very negative thoughts about Country Music for most of my life.
Strange because I've loved the Dead, the Allman Brothers, Santana, Van Morrison and James Taylor for as long as I can remember choosing the radio station and freeing my mind from the Top 40 music limbo of suburban NJ (sometime during my Junior year at FTHS)

But my dad would listen to the country stations...and I mean COUNTRY....songs about shooting your wife because she walked the dog wrong and the jutebox doesn't work and someone left someone else.........

Maybe I wasn't mature enough to understand these things....

Maybe I'm still not.

But here is my confession - I Love Johnny Cash. Love him.
But the real confession is this (oh goodness)
I didn't realize I loved him until AFTER I saw Walk the Line with Joaquin Pheonix - maybe it helped to have Johnny so darn hot. I don't know...
But along with this strange new appreciation for country pain comes a long sought comprehension of my Dad's love for Willie Nelson

ok, time to go meet Shelia for dinner -Yay! Friend time....
more on my thoughts about country soon...
In the meantime I leave you with this urban thought
(from Jared...again...)

On days....off

"Some days you get the bear....."
Has anyone seen "Grizzly Man" I've heard about it - a kid goes into the wild every summer for 13 years believing he has made friends with bears (grizzly ones) in the 13th year he and his girlfriend (poor soul, she didn't really want to be there, but she was worried about Grizzly Boy) are mauled and quite killed-ed by one of the bears - He was annoying I think, so I hear---
But whats all this about?
Change -
Can something that has always been one way change? Can you teach an old dog?
Can I learn to commit to one person (I think I can)
Can I learn not to jump on the backs of people I love and nibble on their ear lobes (I don't think so)
Can I learn to trust someone who has wronged me? (maybe?)
Should I?
That's really what I'm wondering.

And on to the new piece -- Jen's solo-- is exciting --
If only we could be in rehearsal...
No really - it is getting very unsual and playing with all of the themes I wanted to explore, and finding new ones...
I love that part....

Zoe and Jared are finding beautiful and cool moments of tenderness and tentativeness in the duet -that too is exciting for me...

Ok.life isn't all bad. today I'd call it Art 6, Love 3

Bliss or Something like it

Discovered a fun link to keep updated on the moon on a friend's new site - Moon Me Designs -
I like knowing what the moon is doing--I often feel like it has a lot to do with what I am doing at any one moment-
Lunar -Sea is something I've felt very connected to-- but not in a fall down crazy wacko kind of way -- more in a gentle, ah yes, I am made up of water and calcium kind of way----

Today is Joe's 32nd birthday-- We have an ice cream cake - although it is a mystery as to what kind of ice cream it is (the guy at Ben and Jerry's sweetly had no idea since it wasn't labelled on the bottom,) and of course I felt that the mystery cake was the only interesting way to go --

Mystery cake is one of life's best kept secrets.

As long as the mystery isn't that its FROZEN YOGURT ugh.